(plugged in, not recharging)

As a recent college grad (hooray!), the only computer that I ever use is a laptop. And it's the same laptop I've used for the past four years--it has its scratches and stickers, and a hard drive crammed with about two years of information. It's undergone a few re-imagings and survived several blue-screens; it's had processing- and data-heavy programs run on it and uninstalled--games, free trials of several Adobe programs, and gone through its share of web browsers. I've backed it up once or twice, but I'm rather attached to what it has and how it runs now. Still, before I start a real job, I need to clean this thing up. What goes on in the virtual space of my computer aside, there are hardware issues that I'm more interested in, because I feel like it bears analogy to life.
For whatever reason, there is a conflict between certain circuits in my computer—probably between hardware and operating software—that leads to this confusing read out: 7% available (plugged in, not charging). Ok, you. You were complaining two minutes ago that you were running low on juice, I should plug you in or you'd shut down. That's a bit manipulative, but fair, I guess. So I gave you what you've wanted, and you're not dead or hibernating--but why won't you charge?!? I feel like it's the logical next step, but for some reason you're not taking it yourself AND YOU WON'T LET ME TELL YOU TO DO IT OR EVEN FORCE YOU TO! So I googled it, and there are a few ways of dealing with it. If you went to the store, they'd probably want you to buy a new power supply or battery; if you went to the Houghton Helpdesk, they'd probably tell you the same, but you should probably try re-imaging it. But the internets says I can just put it through an elaborate shutdown-disconnect/reconnect-reboot-disconnect/reconnect-reboot process that will get my computer to kick itself in such away that it realizes how stupid it's being. And I've figured out my own way of jimmying it to temporarily fix the problem—not without duly whining and griping at the machine. So before I try this potentially more permanent fix, I'm putting this idea down, because it made me think of where I'm at.
In transition, between school and career and temporary work; and in some emotional/spiritual turmoil. So I will often plug in to God, in the ways I know how, to recharge. Partly, I'm looking for energy to face up to what lies ahead of me, but it's not all I'm looking for: I need other things like software updates and bug fixes, and registry error corrections. So I guess I'm comparing that connection more to an internet rather than power supply. Because I'm looking for information and tech-support on my software and hardware...spiritually. But I also need energy to do all that. What I'm getting at is, how many times do I plug in to God for energy and correction, but won't accept what he's sending me? Are there times that I will go to God, but, by some malfunction or oversight, don't let him actually charge me up? Yes. I know that I am capable of that, and because I have in the past. Looking back, I can point to specific times where I was searching for, but wasn't fully invested in my own recovery.
So this is the time that I'm working past that. Because there is tech support, and friendly users that will help you. Because I'm not a computer, but I have my hardware--my mind, heart, soul and whatever it is that really makes us up--and my software--my ways of thinking, my character, my connections between memory, knowledge, incoming information, my standard operating procedures, and everything--and my different kinds of ports for data and power--AC, DSL, USB, DVDR, SD, and even Fire-wire, oh and the removable battery. But I guess I'm at a point where I'm more conscious of all the things I am connecting to, and how to process and manage and select inputs, and power supply, and data processing and storage. I've never really looked into writing software for computers, but in life I think I've tried my hand at it. I've had lots of help, and wouldn't be able to comprehensively cite all those resources like a good MLA academic.
It's good to try, and give credit where it's due: my parents, my Christian upbringing (churches, camps, schools, etc), the Bible, several mentors I've had in teachers and professors, and books I've read. All of these have been formative to the way I think and work and respond to life.
Thinking and working and responding to life. Right now that means looking forward, but to do so well, I also have to go back. I have to debug, and correct registry errors, and run some updates from my software providers. And when dang Windows asks me to look for a solution online (when I'm sure that I know how to fix it myself, but Windows put that button in a different place for this OS) I really do need to connect to the main server. I need to connect to the original power source. By prayer, reading the Word, and participating in what it suggests I do; by following the lead of love. Because God is the best, and only good source—all other good things come from or through him, one way or another.